its starting to feel properly like christmas now! Just got one essay to do and then i can go home! can't wait, havent wanted to be home so much since i left which was over about a year and a half ago. was supposed to finish essay today but after i got back from the library with a collection of irrelivant books, i couldnt DO ANYTHING!

Spoke to my mum today on the phone and we were talking about the breakup and i just said all this stuff that i was feeling, which i didnt really know before i said it and it was really difficult and horrible going through how i was feeling but afterwards it was kind of peaceful and i felt a little bit more sane! It comes in waves, i'll be fine and then something will click and in just a few seconds im taken over with grief and crapness but i suppose its natural and id rather be dealing with it to be honest.

Had a good chat with my flatmate and listened to a lot of bjork and feeling pretty relaxed. Just need to sleep now, get up, do work....go hooooome. Meet friends, eat food, drink excessively, be in the country side, eat more, drink more. Cant wait