so this is it. this is a bit weird and very uncomfortable but something about it seems right. Ive never really understood blogs or why people would want to but recently i have thought about it alot and here i am. I often think about keeping a diary or writing stuff down but putting something out seems different and i suppose a bit scarier. I have no idea how anyone would ever find this to read anyway?! but the thought of a complete stranger on the other side of the world reading this is in a very odd way - comforting. Dont know how this will go but just wanted to get something down.